I’m always curious if anyone has ever been too scared to tell me how they really feel. I’m curious if anyone has ever thought about me and wanted to see me while they’re drunk or blacked out because isn’t it true that drunk words and thoughts are emotions you’re too scared to say or face when you’re sober?
I want to be someone’s number one. Not just a temporary fix. I want them to think about me still years later down the road and wonder how I’m doing, have an urge to want to see me again, have their stomach turn when they see recent pictures of me.
I want to be someone’s number one instead of having this feeling that there’s someone else above me who has been treated better in the past and who is worth lying about and being kept a secret behind my back as if it will be no big deal if I decide to leave.
Feeling something so great that I’ve never felt before and having it be mutual would be such a dream.